(3) Went to the doctor…

They said it’s a sever le sprain but no fracture ๐Ÿ™‚ They out me in a boot and on some crutches since the pain is pretty bad for walking even with the boot.

Currently:

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Icing it.
Pretty boring stuff ๐Ÿ˜›

(2) It’s 3AM but I haven’t slept…

So I’m counting this as part of my posting streak.

Today was … lousy? I guess. I was tired all day but I worked hard through it. Also had a bit of an argument with T. THEN, at 11PM when I was leaving one of my tutoring student’s house…I fell of the steps and sprained my ankle.

On a positive note, my student is doing well in her class and has made some significant improvements ๐Ÿ™‚ She received 100 on an important assignment.

What is more, T has been pampering me โค That’s always nice.

I’m just worried about what to do tomorrow…I’m supposed to work but I don’t know if it’s a good idea seeing as I would need to be on my feet a lot. I notified my employer about my situation but I haven’t received a response.

 

(1) Every time I skip a day…

I’m going to start over numbering my posts from 1 and see what that largest post streak I can get is. Maybe that will act as an additional motivator for me ๐Ÿ™‚

Honestly, it’s not that I don’t want to post every day. It’s just that I get so busy and forget.

In any case…Donald Trump is straight stressing me out.

I have a friend who posted on Facebook about how silly white people are that we are shocked by Donald Trump, because his racism and xenophobia are just 1 example of how these sentiments are rampant in America… But you know… It’s not that I was blind to it before. I’ve seen it. Over and over again. However, I really never thought that a POLITICIAN would stand up on a stage and say things that take us all back to the WWII era. I thought if a politician stood up to say the horrible, hateful things he says, that he would be shut down so fast. I didn’t think crowds would flock to him. I didn’t think he would be a major candidate for presidency. When D.T. first announced that he was running I laughed it off; I thought it was going to be a joke. It really doesn’t seem like a joke any more… It’s really just terrifying.

I really really hope and pray and beg that young people go out to vote for anyone besides Trump. If anyone out there is planning not to vote, or hasn’t thought about it, please consider that your responsibility has never been more important. Only by standing up and casting our votes can we prevent this national catastrophe.

 

I’m still here!

I couldn’t post yesterday because my phone died and I was out of town overnight, but I’m here today ๐Ÿ˜€

I had a great time with T in Nashville. We went to a great Blues bar and saw an amazing band. It was really refreshing. The lead vocalist/guitar player was extremely animated and entertaining.

Besides a few small hiccups and me obsessively wanting to follow the plan I had made, we had a great overnight trip.

I don’t have time for a long post today, but I just wanted to pop in and say hello and at least write down a few things.

Almost forgot

But here I am! I’m about to go to bed soon, but I just wanted to journal for a minute before I pass out.

Today was a good day ๐Ÿ™‚ I was happy. My boyfriendย (T)ย and I went grocery shopping and he was really affectionate towards me and I loved it .

I tried to get some work done…but I didn’t really do much. I couldn’t focus. I’m too excited about the mini-vacation I’m taking tomorrow. It’s really just an overnight trip, but I’m really looking forward to it ๐Ÿ™‚ I will try to post at least a few sentences when I get a chance via the mobile app.

Good things that happened today:

  1. The kid I nanny learned the ASL sign for milk, which I’ve been showing him for 3 weeks.
  2. T brought me lunch.
  3. I went grocery shopping with T and he was really affectionate.
  4. T and I cleared the air with a close friend about a misunderstanding.
  5. T and I figured out his insurance info so we can get his glasses repaired.
  6. I played LoL with my girls team โค
  7. I enjoyed learning a new champion in LoL. Had a funny match.
  8. I cuddled with my kitty.
  9. We paid the rent.
  10. T dropped me off and picked me up from nannying โค It was nice spending the extra time together.

Loving-Kindness Meditation (Day 2)

I woke up today and tried to practice a Loveing-Kindness Meditation. I did it for about 10 or 15 minutes, but I couldn’t break through my feeling of numbness towards myself. A couple of times I started to feel kind of happy but as soon as I acknowledged it, it would fade away. So I’m going to keep working on that ^.^

I almost forgot to journal this morning, but I saw some notifications and a comment from someone and it jogged my memory. I’m glad for that because I really think that, for me, I have better days when I remember to journal.

Today I am going to try to focus on kindness and patience. I’m going to try to be kind to myself and those around me. I’m also going to try not to get frustrated or annoyed. I’ve been pretty irritable lately so I think I need to reel that in.

I just started thinking recently that maybe I’m so unhappy these days because in the last few years I have really neglected myself internally and spiritually. I want to explore if working on these things lead to a happier life for me. I am exploring my ideas about myself, the universe, spirituality, and testing them. If atheism is a void of depression and loneliness for me, then I am not going to sink into it without question.